As the title says it, I am a perfectionist.
They say your road to recovery starts when you admit your problem and here I am doing just that.
Being a perfectionist and aiming high is what has gotten me where I am today and what has made me the way I am.
I like who I am but being a perfectionist also means that I aim high all the time and I want to be better all the time, and this can make me feel down, and never be completely happy, which sucks.
Let's say I win Bronze at something, if it was someone else I would tell them "Congrats! That's great!" but if it's me, I would be disappointed and think "Why the heck wasn't I able to get Gold, at least Silver would have been better!".
I do this all the time, it's terrible really, I am actually my worst enemy.
This blog stems from that perfectionism, it's anonymous because as a perfectionist that I am I don't like people to know my flaws, mainly because I feel ashamed of them, not because I want to be better than everyone else. I am hoping that here I will be able to write what comes to my mind and not worry what people think about what I write reflecting on who I am.
I don't want to not be a perfectionist, otherwise I wouldn't aim high but at the same time I would like to be really happy about what I do achieve. I know, it's kind of contradictory.
Maybe one day I will be able to let go and tell everyone who I am, or maybe one day I will become highly successful and never be able to reveal my true identity in fear of the media! *chuckles*
What about you? Can you keep the right balance between motivation and contentment?
What should I do?
